Is there something you’ve been carrying… for a long time?
A wound… a pattern… an “unresolved energy” within you?
What’s it going to take!
You might ask yourself sometimes…
I’m sure there have been times… probably several… where you thought you’ve gotten to the root of it.
And then… life, once again… reveals yet another layer to you.
And it feels like you’re back to square one.
This article aims to shed some LIGHT on what appears to be a dreary situation…
How to heal… and how to deal... with that heavy part of you that won’t go away.
1. How Has It Changed You?
It can be difficult to not feel resentful for your wound that won’t go away…
But if you can step back…
you may find… (as I have)… how it’s changing you for the better.
It reminds me of when I was 19 years old, recovering from a heroin addiction.
Prior to getting clean I was in and out of rehab, I think 6 times within the span of only a year.
I was aware of how foolish it was to hold onto to something so dark and dangerous.
I genuinely wanted to stop…
but I just couldn’t.
Finally I realized if I was going to beat this thing…
I had to change… in a BIG way… & on many levels.
I realized I had to start facing my feelings…
I realized I had to ask for help sometimes…
I realized I had to cut ties with certain toxic relationships.
I realized I needed some semblance of spirituality in my life…
So at 19 years old… inspired by my addiction…
I started working with a therapist… choosing to connect with healthier friends… reading books about spirituality… journaling… meditating… eating healthy foods… exercising… and many other very positive changes resulted.
There’s NO way… my 19 year old self… would have chosen to do ANY of those things if not for that addiction.
The persistence of your pain, wound, or addiction just may be the PERFECT catalyst to help you make positive changes in your life.
2. What Are You Learning?
All the poems have wolves in them. All but one. The most beautiful one of all. She dances in a ring of fire and throws off the challenge with a shrug.
~ Jim Morrison
Many of our personal issues are like wolves that need to be either caged or released.
Some wolves however are here to walk with us, side by side, for a while because they have something to teach us.
You can’t simply cage these special wolves…
These wolves must be tamed.
And there is incredible learning and value in that.
Recently, my friend Josh was telling my coaching group and I about Shiva The Destroyer… (a great example of this)
Notice the snake coiled around his neck…
This POWERFUL and dangerous being looks like a cute little pet!
But it’s still a snake… and can bite at any moment.
The snake however is kept in check… by Shiva’s presence and discipline.
What really helped me deal with my persistent wound was the following question…
Maybe there’s a reason I still have this?
Maybe it really is serving me in some way?
My addiction helped me learn & actually cultivate patience… courage… discipline… gratitude… confidence… and wisdom.
I’ve probably read over a hundred spiritual books in the last 15 years…
but my experience… my “living with” this addiction has taught me more about spirituality, life, and myself than ALL of them combined.
& the fact that it hasn’t completely gone away continues to help me embody those amazing qualities in my daily life.
3. It Does Go Away… (layer by layer)
With all of that said…
We are moving into a time where we don’t need such a degree of darkness to inspire us to learn, grow, and expand.
A lot of us have carried these persistent and heavy wounds through MANY lifetimes… and for all the reasons I shared above.
But in this time… this life… you can choose to learn and grow in a different and much lighter way.
Layer by layer…
Already...
You are healing, releasing, and transmuting whatever it is you’re working with.
I have this “other thing” I’ve been working through for the last 4-5 years…
It’s a perfect example, but a bit too personal to reveal at this moment.
This “weight” has kept me awake at night countless times.
I’ve dedicated probably 15 ayahuasca ceremonies specifically to this ONE wound that just never seemed to go away fully.
Every time a Full or New moon came around… it would shine light onto that heaviness I was carrying in my heart.
Just this last Wednesday, I went through a shamanic breath work ceremony led my by my friend Josh…
Once again, I had the intention to work on that same thing…
The ceremony was awesome…
but it didn’t lift any more of that energy?
What it did however do was show me how much I’ve ALREADY healed.
During the session… like always… “that thing” came right up.
But this time I realized how much lighter it was… and how much more FREE I felt!
It’s still there… a little bit… but I’m making progress.
And so are you.
Even in the times you don’t think you are.
The relapses… the losing control… the “falling back in” to that pattern or darkness is progress…
it indicates that you’re allowing yet another layer to come up for healing.
Each time a layer comes up…
to be seen…
to be felt…
and perhaps even to be played out one last time…
you get to uncover another dimension of your true self… as well as another lesson, another blessing, another growth spurt.
I might be helpful to reflect on the positive changes…
the lessons…
and the wisdom…
that your annoying… heavy… and incessant wound helped you gain.
Before you know it… it will be gone…
and that’s wonderful…
but does not invalidate all good it’s done for you.
I’ll leave you with a simple, but potent line from a popular modern rock song…
Sometimes the darkness… can show you the LIGHT.
Band – Disturbed
“It is through the wound that comes in the light.” by anonymous.
So spot on thank you Victor!
Just what I needed to read. Thankyou Victor. Love From Australia.
yes!! amazing, the same thing has been happening to me especially the las 3 or 4 days, i felt this unstoppable way of breathing that it´s caused by trauma or anxiety that it almost doesen´t let me breathe, it feels horrible, and yes i also thought i had already dealt with it a long time ago but it still keeps coming at some time, much less than before but it would still come, and yes just as you are saying i feel it better each time, i am healing.
Thank you. Namaste
Thank you victor, just what i needed to hear.
Thank you fir sharing from your heart. It is from this space that I connect with you Victor. Much live to you and yours.
Sherri
Las Vegas
And yet I am amazed every time I fall into a deep sadness somehow a message comes through to let me know that I am not alone. Thank you Victor. I needed this so much and it appeared as if by a guided hand. I’m blessed.
I needed this right at this very time! Thanks
Thank Vic. Im very thankful your videos & your writings🙏✨. Much love to you, Patti & the kiddos💜🙏✨
You’re awesome! Thank you so much!!🙌🏻😇🙏